What happens when the only wall is geographical? But one builds emotionally too. Is it enough to make you give up on sunshine and rainbows?
The impending pain can only be compared to watching a car racing to run you down at full speed but knowing your feet are firmly cemented and cannot break free. But what if you could take flight? What if it was possible to tear your flesh now but avoid the imminent despair of August.
The balancing act the weighing-up of whether this girl this opportunity standing before you dressed red is worth it? You panic. I'm in too deep. Wouldn't it just be easier to cut and run now?
Your own thoughts battled for years of people abusing the power you let them have over your heart. She is also hurting weighing up the options of falling since the start. Her doubt you can bear no more.
There's only so many times a person can comfort, reassure. Convince. Until your feet start to drag wearying as you go and the answer seems clear.